“Motherhood is magical, it grants you the power to fall in love with someone even before ever meeting them” We decided to wait a year after marriage to even consider the prospect of children. After having ‘The chat’ and making the decision to go off the pill, seven weeks later I found myself in the …
I have a tear stained pillow. Each time I change the cover it reminds me of just how long I have cried for my son. In the depths of the night when everything is silent and dark, my tears flow, only to be caught by my pillow. I recall some nights crying so much I …
Dear newly bereaved parent, My heart is heavy and it aches for you. I will never know exactly what you are going through. Your new world has started and I know it all seems very slow and surreal. I bet you never thought you would end up here nor wished for time to go more …
There is nothing pretty about pain, there is nothing pretty about a broken heart. It’s quite astonishing to grow a baby. Until you first see the little bean shaped teddy bear, you don’t quite believe it. The tiny silver flicker galloping loud like a race horse, smaller then a grain of rice. For me it …
Opening the door into grief is never a chosen one. Quite often it falls upon you like a ton of bricks. Death is often a very taboo subject, unspoken, silent and tucked away neatly like a freshly ironed shirt. Some words that were unfortunately spoken to me after Alexander died: “Oh well, you’ll just have …
